I’ve recently realised that being the chairperson of the LGBTQ Soc in Maynooth means to some, I’m practically the King of Hell.
…and I’m ok with this.
I could probably get waaaay more subscribers if I did an “It Get’s Better” video, and people on ask fm want me to do one. But it just feels too serious a topic for me to do. I mean, I’m all hyperactivity and jumpiness. How can I be serious?
I Want One
An old friend of mine from school sent me this message tonight;
Shane I heard you’re gay ? Is this true ? I never had a gay friend ! I WANT ONE !! HAHA
How awesome is that. I only didn’t come out to him because we kind of drifted apart. But I’m genuinely touched. How could I not come out to him when he sends me such a lovely message like that. To me it basically reads like “Shane, are you gay? Because that is awesome!”
Oh I’m in such a good mood now. This is how it’s supposed to be!
The Big Eurovision Review, in aid of marriage equality. Check it out.
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Just A Memory
I remember when my cousin and I were little, maybe seven or so. The music video for Scissor Sisters’ song “Filthy Gorgeous” came on and her Dad made some sort of homophobic remark. I can’t remember what it was, but it was nothing major. But afterwards we were both so shocked. We couldn’t understand why he hated another group of people so much. We found it weird, and frightening. I guess it really goes to show that acceptance is natural and hate is taught.
I spent the day with three couples today. They were so different to the couples I’m used to seeing. So much more mature and better suited to one another. As much as it pains me to say it, they may have made me realize that my views on relationships have not been entirely accurate. These people actually almost seemed to better one another and compliment each others personalities. The relationships I usually see are more like a competition with both members vying for power.
I may have to rethink my views on relationships. Oh and two of the couples were gay men and the third were lesbians. LGBT couples for the fucking win!
This of course means I’ve started hallucinating and having vivid dreams. Last nights was horrible and confusing. In the dream, I was watching a movie with a friend of mine and my family. The friend, a boy, touched my hand and my Dad stormed out of the room. I followed him. He started crying. He hugged me and begged me over and over again to,please don’t be gay. Or he muttered between sobs, you’ve brought shame on this family.
I know it was just a sick induced dream but I do wonder from where it stems and what it means. Me and Dad haven’t been great since I came out to him, but still everything isn’t awful either, even if he is ashamed of me.
Life is a crazy thing, and then we dream to try and understand.
I’m just me
You’re the straightest gay guy I know.
That, or variations of it, were said to me three times yesterday. I took it as a compliment, but it’s just a funny statement to make. I’m not trying to act any particular way. I’m not a stereotype. I’m just being me.