I’m quite proud of this!
I will be away from the internet for a while.
Lots of my friends have started vlogging, it’s fascinating. I really love signing into youtube and witnessing all that they have created, it’s just like scrolling through tumblr only in video form. But more than that, I am in awe of their talents and abilities. There is something so interesting about watching someone bear there soul in front of a camera. No matter how hard they may try, they cannot truly conceal themselves from their audience. Certain quirks flow through, aspects of personalities are always revealed.
I just wish more of my friends made videos. We are the youtube generation, why not embrace it?
I often wonder…
I often wonder, when people see me what do they think. I am not paranoid, nor will I live for the opinions of others. But still, I find myself wondering.
What do my parents see when they look at me? When I talk to friends, what do they hear in my words? When I console someone in need, what do they see in my eyes. If I scream and shout at someone when they try to insult me, is it annoyance or admiration they feel? As strangers catch site of me, do they see a reckless youth or something else? When I talk to someone over the internet, do they believe my words or write them off as senseless flattery?
At night before I sleep this is what constantly plays through my head. What were they thinking? Why was that said? How did they feel?
In the end I’ll never know. But even if I did, it wouldn’t change anything. I am me, I have my own morals, ideals and beliefs. Nothing will ever change that. I will not allow anything or anyone to change me.
How I spent my evening without internet and with friends:L