I know I’m sick when I have nightmares, and last night was a doozy. I woke up shaking and terrified. I dreamt that I decided to drop out of college and had to go back to school and repeat the two years of my Leaving Cert. It was horrifying. I was all alone again struggling beneath a massive workload. That’s what the Leaving Cert does, that’s the pressure of it. It scars you so much psychologically that a year later nightmares of having to repeat it can still have you wake up in a cold sweat.